From the previous post, the wait till 7.30am was horrible. I couldn't lie down as my contractions were very painful. The front felt like I was having menstrual cramps and my back hurts like never before. Even walking around was painful but not as bad as lying down. So the whole night I just paced around in the dark room while hubby caught up on his rest.
By the time we reached the labour ward, I was given the pump to empty my bowels. The effect was very fast, within 3min. After clearing my bowels, we waited a while for the doctor in charge of epidural to come. I was on CTG and blood pressure pump throughout. By the time he came and started his procedures, it was already 10plus. He started with giving anaesthesia for my left hand. That was very painful! Then he carried on to put the catheter for drip on the same hand.
Then I laid on my left and curled my back. He talked to me throughout the whole procedure. Very professional. First was anaesthesia to numb the area, then to insert the tubing into spine to give me epidural. It's less painful than putting in the catheter!!! After that, he taped down all the tubings on my back and gave me dosages of epidural.
My back pain was gone almost instantly. Then the left side was numbed and slowly the right side as well. No more pain!! Hurray!
Gynae came shortly after and checked my cervix again, then she broke my water bag. Couldn't feel any pain anymore but I felt water flowing out.
To cut the long story short, I laid on the bed till 2plus. Gynae came and check, I was 5cm dilated. She was happy with the progress, speculated that we should be done by 6pm. I was really happy.
But sad to say that at 6pm, I was still only 6cm dilated. I was emotionally not alright after hearing that because I knew something must be wrong. I started crying even before the gynae came and told me I might have to consider doing emergency csect.
What went through my mind:
1) I really wanted to have a natural vagina birth.
2) I was really hopeful because everything was so smooth before that.
3) I had went through so much pain to reach where I am, I was really disappointed in the outcome.
4) Emergency csect would cost a bomb.
Gynae saw me crying so she gave me another 3h to wait and see then make a decision. I knew that between 6-9pm, many people msg and prayed for me and baby. Thanks a lot! But I just couldn't bring myself to read all those messages. At 9pm, the dilation was still at 6-7cm. So, I made the painful decision to go ahead with csect.
The nurses packed everything then pushed me to the operating theatre. Gynae told me my family was waiting outside. Overwhelmed with emotions, I started crying again. I knew hubby's family must be outside.
So I met them and was pushed into the theatre. It was the doctor who did epidural for me to help me increase the dosage. As before, he talked to me throughout the whole process. Told me the side effects. Mine was very bad shivering. I couldn't stop shivering no matter how much medication he added. Then the drama began.
Hubby was still outside putting on the operating gown. I felt great pain. So I shouted that it was painful. Hubby was about to come in and I heard the doctor telling them to stop hubby from coming in since I'm feeling pain. He wanted to put me on GA instead. But gynae said she had already started and was in the midst of it. Should just carry on with it. I thought I felt her cutting me up, but she explained later that I didn't say it was painful when she cut me. It was the moment that she pulled baby out of me that she heard me saying that it was painful. The pain was so great that it traumatized me. I didn't know it could still be so painful after epidural.
The next thing I knew was, Rachael was out. I heard her first loud cry! I didn't even notice when hubby was in. I thought I would cry upon seeing her. But I was just so happy to see her that I smiled!
My precious Rachael is finally out at 9.54pm on 29 March 2014. She weighed 3.585kg, head circumference was 35cm and length was 49cm.
The doctor helped us took our first family photo while gynae was getting the fibroid out.
What I was thankful during this whole drama was, gynae told us that the big fibroid could be removed because it was only connected by a small tissue. It was as big as a potato. She showed us the big fibroid excitedly and almost dropped it. Later she showed me another smaller one, which I guessed was the one that's causing pain towards the last few days of pregnancy.
What I wasn't happy was the pain that I felt when Rachael was out and Rachael's face was minorly cut during the csect and she has a bruise on the same left cheek. It wasn't such a big deal actually. But I guess my friends were really angry about it. Whatever it is, everything is over. All I'm concern is that Rachael is safe and sound and my wound will heal as soon as possible.
I'm thankful to God for literally pulling us through. Thankful for friends who prayed for us, blessed us, visited us and shared our joy. The verse that kept me through the entire day on 29 March was "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me". I'm sure He will continue to strengthen my hubby and I as we work through parenthood together.
Thank You, Jesus!
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